Saturday, December 18, 2010

It's been ages

I think it's been about 3 months since my last blog - so much has happened! I got married and now may be going through yet another major life change. My new husband may be taking a job out-of-state. We don't know yet, but the possibility of leaving Nashville has me freaking out more than just a little. I wouldn't mind moving back to California, but there's really nowhere else that appeals to me because of the lack of music business in other cities, except for NYC, and I can't see moving there now. My emotions have been all over the place with the uncertainty of what's going to happen and when and where. I've been analyzing my time here in Nashville and what I've accomplished musically. This city has been great for me spiritually and emotionally - I've made tons of wonderful friends. Musically it has been frustrating. The good thing is that I feel I've got a more clear vision of who I am as a musician - I moved here from LA hoping to get into country songwriting (which I still do) and I was singing Blues and Classic R&B. Now I am writing and singing Smooth Jazz and Adult Contemporary, and that works for me both as a songwriter and singer. Nashville has such a small Jazz scene, that I think a bigger city would work for me in that regards. But it's scary to think of starting over, finding new musicians (I work with excellent musicians here), finding new venues, and more importantly, new friends. I've been on a roller coaster emotionally, but know that wherever we are guided is the right and best choice for us both. I am ready for whatever Spirit has in mind for us and know that my time in Nashville has been a huge learning experience for me. It's been more like school than anything else - I now think I'm ready to graduate and get out into the real world.

We'll see what happens! I'll keep you posted...